MAD

I am mad. Everytime I imagine the things that you two did together I am breaking into pieces. I am fuming with anger and I dont know how to get rid of this. Demmit! I want to shout so loud until I get everything out of my system. I want to hurt somebody or more so hurt myself. I want to feel physical pain in order for me to mask this pain inside. I feel my chest tightening and hurting all at the same time...everytime. Im sorry but I am so messed up.

I need to stop thinking.
I need to shut down.
I need to get over this.
Most of the time I just want to stop breathing and die...