Extreme Expression of Love

Napanood ko ngayon yung Valentine episode ng PIPOL. Wala na kaming TFC dito sa flat, pero dahil malakas sa kin si adik, ayun nagsubscribe tuloy ako sa abs-cbn ng isang buwan! Mura lang, $4.95...kayang kaya! Madali lang pagputahan yan! Isang sayaw lang yan sa gabi! Bwahaha! E kung tutuusin yang $4.95 na yan pag ipinangtawag ko yan sa pinas, pucha halos 4 na minutong usapan lang ata yan! (Oo ganyan kamahal ang overseas call dito! Off peak na yan ha!)

Pero di tungkol sa overseas call ang sasabihin ko...Ang sasabihin ko yung tungkol sa napanood ko sa PIPOL (na pilit ipinanood sa kin ni adik!Joke!) Yung unang episode na tungkol sa kasal ng katulad natin ng pananampalataya (Amen!)

Ang kwento ganito...Long distance relationship sila...yung isa nasa Germany, yung isa nasa Israel...nagkakilala sa chat...naging mag-UN...pinuntahan nung nasa Germany yung gf nya na nasa Israel pero bumalik sya ulit ng Germany...Di nakayanan ni gf na nasa Israel yung sitwasyon (hirap nga kasi ng long distance, nakakapraning!) kaya nakipagbreak dun sa taga Germany...tpos umuwi na ng pinas si gf na taga Israel e nagkataon umuwi rin ng pinas si taga Germany...pinagtagpo ulit sila ng tadhana...dun nila narealize na mahal pala talaga nila yung isa't isa...back to square one si taga Germany kasi niligawan nya ulit...tapos di pa ata natatapos ang araw, sinagot na ulit sya kaya mag-UN na ulit sila...e sabi nila pareho silang selosa...wala silang tiwala sa isa't isa kaya bago umalis ulit si taga Germany nagpakasal sila! They had the 'usual' wedding, gowns and all...ang pagkakaiba lang pareho silang girl...and both their families were there...with the usual rites and blessings...

So anong pinupunto ko?! Hmmm...ano nga ba?! Gusto ko lang sabihin na mahirap talaga ang long distance relationship PERO (a big BUT kasing laki ng kay JLo!) if both of you are willing to sacrifice, stay focused and committed in order to make the relationship work, it'll work! It takes two to tango! Pag ikaw lang ng ikaw ang bumabangka, kahit anong gawin mo, ala you're doomed! More than the love, kailangan ng trust! Magimbak ka ng marami nyan at baka maubusan ka sa tindahan! Hehe!

And in this kind of relationship, kailangan matatag ka...madami ka maririnig at madaming hindi makakaintindi (kasama na dun ang pamilya mo) pero kung ikaw naiintindihan mo, tanggap mo at sigurado ka sa sarili mo, it wont matter kahit ano pang marinig mo dahil dapat mas malawak ang pang unawa mo kesa sa kanila. Live and let live.

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Baby, even if we wont ever get the chance to marry the way they did, what we did last November is more than enough. You may never get the chance to wear a gown or walk in the aisle with both our families as our witness, but God as our witness is far better than any witness who ever lived. We may never have the chance to recite the usual marriage vows, but our words of promise and love; and our actions to do everything to make this relationship work is more important than anything else...And seeing the ring I wear around my finger everyday is enough proof that I am bind to you as you are to me...for life...

~02 November 2005~

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!

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You are the one

The only one that I desire

When we touch

When we're one you light the fire

The seasons we share

Hand in hand, there seems to be no time

Each day with you becomes a Valentine...

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH baby!

Advance Happy V-day!

to all the people in the house

...AND...

to my worst critic

yet

my number one fan (whoosshooo!)

advance

HAPPY VALENTINE's DAY adik!

buti nalang napana ka ng batang may pakpak...
at buti nalang di sumablay ang panang itinutok sayo!
at malamang nagpapasalamat yun dahil nawalan sya ng dalawang sakit sa ulo!
bawi ako sa'yo ng date pag-uwi ko,
kasama madaming madaming kiss saka hug!

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2 weeks kitang na-miss
akalain mo yun!
welcome back baby!

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!

The 1/4 Life Crisis

It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are a lot of things about yourself that you didn't know and may or may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you do not realize is that they are realizing that too and are not really cold or catty or mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job. It is not even close to what you thought you would be doing or maybe you are looking for one and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and are scared.

You miss the comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with the same people on a constant basis. But then you realize that maybe they weren't so great after all.

You are beginning to understand yourself and what you want and do not want. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging a bit more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and add things to your list of what is acceptable and what is not. You are insecure and then secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you or you lay in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough to get to know better. You love someone but maybe love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person.

One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap and getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.

You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for yourself and while wining the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.

---Unknown

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Parang kilala ko kung sino ang sinusumpong ng ganito ngayon! Hehe!
Maybe it's the weather!
O ganito lang ata talaga pag nagkaka-edad?!
Di ba adik?! (sumagot ka ng matino kundi may sapak ka! haha!)

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH...
thank you for keeping me grounded...

8th Na!

Happy 8th Monthsary Baby!

Four more months, ONE year na!

Huwoooow!

Thank you for the Love, patience, understanding & time...

Kahit na ilang dagat, bundok o disierto ang harang sa 'tin,

Tatawirin ko na parang Quiapo-Monumento lang ang layo...

Basta ba free ticket lagi ako! (Haha, joke!)

I'll be home very soon!

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH adik!

...Through and Through...

Letter for No One

There comes a point in time when I'd rather be all by myself than socialize. I guess when people around you become too close for comfort, you begin to overlook some things. I know it's rude to just break away, but honestly, I think that would be better for now. I have issues I know and it's eating me up, that's why I'd rather be by myself than fake a smile. Im too lucid to do that.

No, Im not mad. I dont have any reasons to be. I just don't want to ruin the mood, festive or otherwise.

So if you're asking me if something is wrong...yeah, probably...a little...

The "It's not you, it's me" line spells it out.

But, I'll be OK in no time.

My duel with the demons has been great so far.

Im having a grand time.

But I think I still need the Charmed ones to save me.

Just great.