Tuesday, June 28, 2005

Anak ng Isda!

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Lola na ko!

Yesterday night, while I was sitting in front of my pc, I was looking at my fishes and noticed something that caught my eye and attention. So, I got up & immediately examine their turf. I thought what I saw was just some of their dirt swimming around their bowl...but then I looked closer and hard...Wow! May nadagdag sa tropa! 4 very tiny fingerlings!!!

Whoa! 'Langyang mga isda yan nagkabuntisan ng di ko nalalaman!

Hay! Talagang tama ang realization ko na buti pa ang mga isda ko laging basa!
Samantalang ako tigang!
Bwahehe!

Thursday, June 23, 2005

For My Dearest...

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I can be 'that someone' who can hadle your tantrums...
I can be 'that someone' who can calm your storms...
I can be 'that someone' who can lets you be by yourself...
I can be 'that someone' who can love you inspite of your flaws & weaknesses...
I can be 'that someone' who enjoys life...
I can be 'that someone' who values family & God...
I can be 'that someone' who can make you feel special...
I can be 'that someone' who can laugh with you and cry with you...
I can be 'that someone' who can stand for herself...
I can be 'that someone' who can meet your parents & lets you meet my parents as well..
I can be 'that someone' who is FAITHFUL...
I can be 'that someone' who loves to eat...
I can be 'that someone' who, though you're far apart will never cease to make you feel how much she loves you...

I HOPE...

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I will do everything to make you happy, see you smile & hear you laugh
We have something beautiful
Something that you would want to last for a lifetime
Something that you will cherish forever
An answered prayer that took place in the most unexpected way
But an answered prayer just the same
I am proud of you
And I so glad you are MINE...
I LOVE YOU...deeply...

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

Random Text Messages

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I have tons of messages in my mobile. Di kasi ako nagdedelete eversince I bought that fone. Siguro pag sinuma mo, it would add up to around 1700+ messages! Hehe! Buti nga di pa sya nagrurun-out of memory! Wag naman sana! Sayang mga text na yun! Priceless yun! Yoko sila mawala...Bakit kamo? Kasi kung dati pagbabasa ng libro ang pampaantok ko, Ngayon pagbabasa ng mga text messages sa fone na ang pampatulog ko! Try nyo, epek pramis! Hehe!

Minsan umaabot ako sa kalahati...minsan naman kaunti pa lang nasisimulan kong basahin logtu na ang lola mo! Mas masaya kesa pagbibilang ng tupa! Pero pag di talaga ako makatulog aba, iisa lang ang solusyon ko dyan...cough syrup! Hehe! Adik e, what to do?!

May mga messages from friends na paulit-ulit kong binabasa...Maybe because they touch me in some ways. For all those messages, Im thankful...coz looking back now, tama pala kayo! Share ko some...

Tnx ah?
Hiya talaga ako sau.
Newez, yngat ka dun nd sna
ul fynd sum1 dat
wud make u hapi, trit u wel nd
wud tc of u.
i wish u well.
Hope 2 c u gain, txt2nd email
email n lng ulit.

-from TYN 11.48 pm

28/04/2005

I wish u wel nd i wish u 2 b hapi..
may not b 2day.. bt soon, i knw..
Tang ina lng! Swerte ung
mamahalin m s su2nod.
Believ me. :-)
Tc.

-from TYN 10.42 am
29/04/2005

*hugsUtyt* i know ds is
cliche...pero 22o...Darating
din ang para sau...God
empties ur hand 4 u 2 reciv more...

-from SEXY SUMMER 12.41 am
29/04/2005

Yeah, hirap!Bt b hapi nlang 4
her!Ddtng dn ung pra sau! Il
pray 4u!

-from FEMME_FATALE 12.35 am
29/04/2005


TYN, if ever you stumble upon this blog, I jaz want you to know that I appreciate all those words! Thank you for everything...and yeah I am happy now...all those pain Ive experienced are all worth it! Wish you well too my dear! Im here, anytime!

SEXY, cliche but true! I can testify kahit sa korte! Bwahehe! =) I guess the right time has come! *keeping my fingers crossed* For being always there all those time...thank you! =)

FEMME_FATALE, Bro! Dumating na ata! Nakita na 'ko! Nabulag ata! Bwahehe! =)



...And by the way, Tyn is my ex's sister...and yeah, we're in good terms...her sister, that is!


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ADIKSAU...
I LOVE YOU!
Wont trade you for anything in the world!

Monday, June 20, 2005

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"True Love is neither physical nor romantic. True love is an acceptance of all that is, has been, will be and will not be..."



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the distance that separates us now
doesn't change anything that i feel for You...
this is our test of time & fire
that we need to surpass...
the distance can either break us or make us...
but the LOVE that we have for each other
will be the beacon of light that will guide us through...
my love is steadfast
i just need you to be strong
and believe that there'll be better days ahead...
We will have our time...
We will make it happen...SOON..
I LOVE YOU ADIK...

MINE.

Sunday, June 19, 2005

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My life was on a steady pace,
Routine and very much ordinary

Until

She came,
She saw,
And
She conquered..

I am nothing
Yet
She treats me like
I am EVERYTHING...

Priceless...

I am all yours
And You are mine
For keeps...

I LOVE YOU...deeply



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Txt message sa kin ni Momski Rui: Madali humanap ng someone to love but not someone who will love You.

Very much true...

Kaya now that we've found each other...La ka na kawala adik!

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HAPPY FATHER'S DAY TO ALL THE FATHER'S IN THE HOUSE!

Thursday, June 16, 2005

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She is a stranger to me,
And I to her.
We met one April night,
Went to eat out,
Talk about everything and anything
For about an hour or so,
Then said our goodbyes.
That was the first & the last time
We saw each other.

But...

That was the start of a good friendship.
We texted each other almost everyday.
It started from just saying our usual hi's & hello's,
Until such time that we became comfortable
With each other's company and thoughts.
She tells me what concerns her,
And I will always reply with what's on my mind.
We have spontaneity.
We have kinship.

Then...

A big 'Misunderstanding' set in.
We have something but we both
Couldnt pinpoint what that is.
It just happened.
We were caught off guard.
I was caught off guard.

I broke the rules.
Rules that I strictly follow
when it comes to relationship.
I have no intention of breaking it.
I didnt plan it to happen.
But still, I falter.

How can you love a stranger?
How can you be happy knowing that
someone will be hurt in the process because of you?
How will you know if you are the worthy one?
How will you be able to sustain it?

What we have is a love that sprang from a 'Misunderstanding'.
Whether this is right or wrong,
I dont know...
But
There is only one thing Im sure of...


I LOVE HER
...To its fullest meaning and deepest core...


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You can shoot me now...

Monday, June 13, 2005

If You Forget Me

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I want you to know
one thing.

You know how this is:
if I look
at the crystal moon, at the red branch
of the slow autumn at my window,
if I touch
near the fire
the impalpable ash
or the wrinkled body of the log,
everything carries me to you,
as if everything that exists,
aromas, light, metals,
were little boats
that sail
toward those isles of yours that wait for me.

Well, now,
if little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you little by little.

If suddenly
you forget me
do not look for me,
for I shall already have forgotten you.

If you think it long and mad,
the wind of banners
that passes through my life,
and you decide
to leave me at the shore
of the heart where I have roots,
remember
that on that day,
at that hour,
I shall lift my arms
and my roots will set off
to seek another land.

But
if each day,
each hour,
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness,
if each day a flower
climbs up to your lips to seek me,
ah my love, ah my own,
in me all that fire is repeated,
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love, beloved,
and as long as you live it will be in your arms
without leaving mine.

~Pablo Neruda

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i love you adik!
without rhyme nor reason
im yours alone
and you're mine only...
i'll take care of you
i promise...

Sunday, June 12, 2005

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You make all the pains,
frustrations,
disappointments,
and heartaches
that I've been through
worthwhile...

You are making me see
the beauty of living once again
after being dead for a while...

You show me that there is
light at the end of the tunnel,
sunshine after the rain,
a flicker of hope on a very dark night...

You awake in me
the things that
I am not aware of before...

You make me believe
that magic still happens...

Because...
among all the millions of people in this world,
You saw me...
Found your way to me...
and Love me...
EXCEPTIONALLY...


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I LOVE YOU ADIK!
we are going to make this work
you and me
i'll hold your hand
i wont let go
i promise...
wala na kong mahahanap na katulad mo
rare species ka rin e! Hehe!
im glad we found each other
amidst all those kaadikan & kabadingan!
akalain mo yun???!!!
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Friday, June 10, 2005

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In between soberness and intoxication
My alcohol induced mind is still aware
of what is reality and pretense...

I LOVE YOU
Wholeheartedly...
Sincerely...
Truthfully...

In between soberness and intoxication
Loving you is the only absolute thing I know...



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those words I said were true...
I will make myself ready for you
Just let it grow on me naturally
Because when it does...
Wala ka ng kawala! =)

Thursday, June 09, 2005

For the Woman who Found Me...

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In my eyes
I see the world as harsh and ruthless
It didnt treat me well
I didnt feel any comfort
My fragile heart got beaten down
Once, twice, thrice
Over & over...

The love that I offered was thrown back at my face
That's how dispensable I am in her eyes
Unimportant...
Unnecessary...
Replaceable...

The days were hard
More so the nights
I was burnout and disillusioned
I refused to believe in good things anymore
Things that are most essential & crucial to living...

UNTIL YOU FOUND ME...
In the most unlikely manner
And in an almost wacky way

Who would have thought it would lead to this?
Amazing...
Because You make me want to believe again...

i love you adik!
no questions asked...

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

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To my 2 bestfriends who mean the world to me...HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

I wish you both all the happiness that this world can offer. Though pain is sometimes inevitable, I will always be here to see you through. I wouldnt trade the both of you for anything in the world khit mga adik pa kayo! Through good times and bad, You can count on me...we can always count on each other. Di na ko makakakuha ng mas prapraning pa sa inyo! Bwahehe!

Looking forward to more years of friendship...
good times...
balahuraan...
eating...
cofffee...
swimming...
table tennis....
fishing...
pot sessions! (wag ka na kuting!)...
drinking sessions...
senti sessions...(eto pwede wish ko lang mabawas bawasan na!)
parteeee...
videoke...
and dancing!

Cheers mga adik!
Luv You Both!

Sunday, June 05, 2005

If I Could...

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if i could be in your arms right now, ill hold your hand, hug you tight and assure you that everything's gonna be alright...

if i could change the course of time, ill make sure that the future's gonna be on our side...all will be well & good...no more heartaches or broken promises...

if i could fly like superman, ill be there in a jiffy whenever you need me...anytime...we'll go out & dine, go to the movies, drive around, visit the beach or just spend precious time with each other...

if i could only solve all your problems, calm your storms in life, take away all your fears & sorrow, I would gladly do it for you without a doubt...

if i could kiss you right now, ill kiss you long & hard...wiwi lang ang pagitan!

kala mo serious na noh?! bwahehe!

gotcha! =)

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Saturday, June 04, 2005

Better than chocolate

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what is better than chocolate???

...the sex of course!

kidding!!!

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To You who confuse me (too!),

Chocolates wouldnt match up to your sweetness & caring.
For the concern and everything in between,
Thank you!
You are giving me reason to see the world in a different light after I've seen & experienced the worst.
You have a good soul.
My kindred spirit.
You deserve to be treated well and be taken cared of though you can very well take good care of yourself.
You deserve more than the best in life.
You are worthy.
If only you can see your worth...

Bounce!
Im here...now and as long as you need me...


P.S.
Please lang bawas bawasan mo pag-aadik masama sa katawan yan!
Pasaway ka rin e!
Bwahehe!

And please dont phunk with my heart...wag ikaw...


Friday, June 03, 2005

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AFTER A WHILE...

After a while, you learn the subtle difference
between holding a hand and chaining a soul.
And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning
and company doesn't mean security.
And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts
and presents aren't promises.
And you begin to accept your defeats with your head up
and your eyes open, with the grace of an adult
not the grief of a child.
And you begin to build all your roads on today
for tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans.
After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much.
So plant your own garden and decorate your own soul
instead of waiting for someone to give you flowers.
And you learn that you really can endure...
That you really are strong...
And you really do have worth.


AFTER "AFTER A WHILE"...

After 'after a while'
You want to hold a hand not to chain a soul
but to enjoy its company,
and you want someone's lips to kiss,
not because you are lonely but because you are happy,
and you want to give presents
and you want to make promises.
After 'after a while'
You begin to accept your defeats like an adult,
but like a child, will want someone to listen and care,
and you want someone who will build roads with you today
so maybe you can pave the way for your future together.
After 'after a while'
You want someone's sunshine and warmth,
but also accept the rain and the cold,
and you want to give flowers picked from your own garden.
And when your garden is picture perfect,
you want it to be more than a picture
even if it means having to be imperfect
because you want someone in it to stay and to live.
Then you'll see that there is such a thing as love...
and that you were made to live in someone else's garden...
and you'll know that there is more to life than yourself.


AND NOW...

You realize that no matter how tightly you hold,
if you're meant to let go, you can
And then you will understand that love
gives you reasons to understand
even the most complicated situations
And you will grow older believing
that just because you have convictions
doesn't mean you're always right.
You will remember lips because of the smiles
that made your day,
the words that touched your soul,
not only because of the sweet kisses.
And as you graciously accept defeat
and absorb the meaning of lessons learned,
You feel that you are finally being the person
you never thought you'd be.
So, armed with courage, strength and confidence,
you will face the world head on...
With or without an army behind you
Because you know your worth and that alone is an armor.
With more heartbreaks you will cry
But after every heartache, you will rise.
Life is a garden ... it takes long to make it beautiful.
But it's always worth the wait.

Thursday, June 02, 2005

TuLoG

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Hindi ako makatulog... dahil gutom
Hindi ako makakain... walang tulog
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Hindi ako matutulog dahil sa'yo...
Hindi ako matutulog dahil sa'yo...

Hindi ako makatulog, walang unan,
Hindi ako makakain, walang ulam

Hindi ako matutulog dahil sa'yo...
Hindi ako matutulog dahil sa'yo...

Nagalalakad pa tayong dalawa sa luneta,
Bigala nalang meron palang nakakita...

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Para SAYO na tinalo ang epekto ng 3 baso ng kape kaninang madaling araw! Thank YOU for keeping me company until my shift ends. Iba ka! Nawala antok ko ha! Matindi pa sa cough syrup ang epekto mo! Gising na gising ako...with a smile on my face! =)

Thank you...from the part that lies below & anterior to the thalamus, forms the floor & lower/lateral walls of the third ventricle, composed of about 12 or more nuclei, vital in hemostasis and fuctions as (1) the feeding center and the satiety center (2) sympathetic & parasympathetic activating region involved in ANS control (3) regulation of body temperature (4) thirst center (5) expression of emotions of rage, fear, aversion, sexual behavior & pleasure (6) regulates & modulates the release of hormones from the anterior pituitary gland (7) control of circadian rhythm (8) modulate visceral activities...

in short, Thank You from the bottom of my Hypothalamus! =) Bwahehe!!!!

iba na 'to! Lakas tama!

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

Addiction

This is my current addiction...

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And She is my current fave...

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At kung hindi nyo mabasa ang nakasulat eto yun...

"Sexuality is fluid. Whether you're gay, straight, or you're bisexual...You just go with the flow."

I have Season 1 Episode 1, 3, 8, 9, 10, 11, & 13.
Season 2 Episode 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 9, 12, & 13.

I hope I can have all the episodes of season 1 & 2. Yan ang kinakarir ko ngayon ang pagdodownload! Yun mga merong episodes na wala ako share naman dyan! hehe! =)

Love. Lesbian. Lust. Longing. Laughter. Lies. Life.

The L Word baby!

Just love them! =)