LOVE is...

Having someone to share your life with...

Knowing that you're never by yourself...

Waiting for you to return...

Sharing stories till you tire...

Taking the Plunge

Some people FALL in Love

I

C

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a

s

h

e

d

into it...

Will I do it again? Certainly...with all my heart. That's the only way to live...I mean, that's the BEST way to live. You can always wear your life jacket to stay afloat. Besides, the law of buoyancy still works...

Wish ko lang may sweldo na!!!!!

I Heart Boracay

I will visit you again soon, albeit this time NOT with the person who means everything to me, but with friends who literally rock my world.

The sight of you BLOWS ME AWAY... I feel comforted in your presence. I dont know what you've got that makes me keep on coming back. All I know is that you are the one place I won't get tired of coming back to.

Sunset from afar is heavenly. There is no one like it. You are full of energy yet people felt solemnly calm after their stay. Seeing pretty and sexy girls in bikini's is just an added bonus! Man, they are everywhere! I could feast my eyes on them for free! haha! :) People are nice and so as the food. I am pretty sure we will have a blast.

So my dear Boracay, await our coming coz I am looking forward to seeing you again :)

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Booked on:
April 18-20, 2005
3 days, 2 nights

***Those who want to tag along are welcome basta KKB! :)

***My dear ex, sori you're gonna miss this chance...I was hoping you could spend it with me but things are different now...Im ready to make another memory on that place without you in it...

What Would You Give For A Broken Heart?

I miss the feeling. I dont know why it came so suddenly. I miss the 'kilig' moments. I miss checking my fone every now and then to see if I have a text. I miss reading the 'i miss you' and 'i love you' at the end of each message. Funny, before I cannot leave my flat without my fone but now I suddenly found no use for it. I even left it at home for one whole day and it didnt even bother me. I didnt find myself on the way home during working hours just to get my dear fone. Now, its only pupose in my life is to wake me up.

I miss the thrill of being in a relationship. I know I have so much love to give and I cannot contain it just bottled up inside. It's a cheap thrill BUT with a price tag. You just gotta be ready to pay up. Just the same, win or lose, you just gotta keep it cool and enjoy. That is the secret...enjoy and never expect.

Can someone please find me a date...I badly need one!

Come on humor me!

Grief is a tidal wave that over takes you, smashes down upon you with unimaginable force, sweeps you up into its darkness, where you tumble and crash against unidentifiable surfaces, only to be thrown out on an unknown beach, bruised, reshaped... Grief will make a new person out of you, if it doesn't kill you in the making.

Stephanie Ericsson

What doesn't kill you will make you strong...so if you feel like you're in the abyss of nothingness, there is no way to go but up, uP, Up, UP! Better get your ass off and start walking and be sure to armor yourself good coz sooner or later you're gonna be in for another adventure...and the cycle goes on....

*that was just my alter ego talking*

=)

Released

I held you close to me
tried to surround you
and protect you with my love,
to keep you safe from all harm,
but it was not what you needed.

I wanted to keep you for myself
encircled, sheltered
Instead of allowing you
to grow and flourish
spread your wings
explore your potential.

I now realized
I cannot contain you,
and that your happiness
is best discovered without me.

To let you go
knowing that I must set you free,
This is the hardest task
I have ever done.

Fly away
Fly High
Fly Free

Disappear from my sight,
quickly
and do not look back.
For if you do
You will see a smile
covering a broken heart.

But the tears of loss
are slowly replaced with tears of joy
knowing your happiness
will soon follow.

May your wings take you
to magical places,
and all your dreams
be fulfilled.

Be happy in all you do
and may one day find
your true love.
That is what I have always
wanted for you.

by Kirsti A. Dyer

Lookie here may booking na ko for April! Yipeeee Im coming home! =) Excited na ko kahit halos two months pa at kahit wala pa kong pamasahe pauwi. Im looking forward to it. Wish ko lang walang maging hassle at payagan ako ng bossing ko. I'll keep my fingers crossed and pray...pray na payagan ako at magkapera! Syeeet gagapang na ata ako nito! Pautang naman dyan! Calling calling! Hehe :) Kailangan payagan nya ko! Kapag di sya nadaan sa charm aba poootah suntukan nalang! bwahaha :)

Crazy!

+ +

I didn't realized that eating ice cream on a freezing January night outside the veranda while smoking countless of cigarettes can be fun. A very good combination indeed. How more weird can we get?! You tell me.

Now, this is what I call = madness!

=)

San Nga Ba Tyo Papunta?

Someone forwarded this to me...nice one that's why I decided to post it. Read on...


Medyo matagal na rin pala bago ako ginanahan uli. Matagal tagal na rin mula nung huli ako nakaisip ng mga bagay na dapat isipin. Actually, kung ano-ano na nga ang pinag-iisip ko nung nakaraan, karamihan wala pa nga kwenta. Sayang lang sa panahon. Marami na rin pala ang nangyari...mga bagay na di ko akalain, pero kung tutuusin, dapat nuon ko pa in-expect. Dapat sa edad nating ito, di na bago ang mga bagay na talaga namang dapat mangyari gayong ganito talaga ang mundo. Sabi nga nila, bilog nga ang mundo. Pero sa totoo lang pati ang buhay bilugan talaga. Me pagkakataong sa ibabaw ka nagpapakalunod sa ligaya gayong me natatapakan ka na pala. Dumarating din ang araw, mga paa na pala nila ang nakatungtong sa mukha natin at sila naman itong nagtatawanang parang baliw habang naka-handusay na tayo sa sahig. Nakakatakot kung tutuusin ang maging masaya kasi bigla na lang ito binabawi. Kung kelan nag-eenjoy ka na me sumusundot na pala sa likuran mo para agawin ito sa iyo ng basta-basta gayung ikaw naman si tanga walang ginagawa kasi wala ka naman talaga magagawa pa. Nakakatakot na rin maging malungkot kasi habang nagdudusa ka mahirap umasa na matatapos din ang lahat, lalo ka lang mabubwiset...at habang nabubugnot ka na sa mga pangyayari saka ka naman gagatungan ng mga walang magawa sa tabi mo....kakasuya!

Sabi ko nga, kahit di na ako yung masaya, kahit ikaw na lang. Akala ko ganun lang yun kadali. Madali sabihin pero sa katotohanan, parang sinabi mo na madali lumunok ng buhay na baboy, o kaya e mangitlog ng isang dosenang itlog ng ostrich. Mahirap din pala, lalo na kung wala ka naman talagang sariling saya na nararamdaman. Para mo lang niloloko ang sarili mo nyan. Pero sabi nga nila, ang pinaka-masarap lokohin ay ang sarili mo.... kasi kahit anong oras pwede mo sabihing, "Nagbibiro lang ako".... bawal mapikon.

Sabi ko nuon, kaya ko kalimutan ang lahat ng bagay para lang masabi ko na "kaya ko na ang Bukas ".....lintek pwede ko ba bawiin yun?! Kahit ano pala ang sabihin ng tao, mahirap makalimot dahil nasa utak mo na yun.... parte na ng sistema mo...bahagi na ng dugo mo..bahagi na ng baga mo..bahagi na ng iniihi mo sa araw-araw. Di ka na makakalimot pero pwede ka matuto. Pwede mo matutuhan na umiwas sa mga pwedeng mangyari. Pwede kang madala...libre yun...walang bayad! Mahirap talaga ang buhay lalo na kung di mo kaya sakyan ang bawat pangyayari. Kaya mabuti pa humarap na ako sa katotohanan na sadyang di ko makukuha ang lahat ng gustuhin ko. Maibibgay sa akin ng Diyos ang pangalan ko, pero hindi ang mapaglalaanan ng apelyido ko. Maibibigay sa akin ng Diyos ang sagot sa mga katanungan ko, pero ang tanungin ka kung bakit mahihirapan akong malaman.

San na nga ba ako patungo ngayon? Kung hahayaan kong malugmok ang sarili ko sa kalungkutan malamang wala talaga ako marating, pero kung matututunan ko lang umunawa alam ko na kung saan ako patungo...

Matagal-tagal na rin mula nung huli ako ginanahan....

Pero sana sa susunod na makita kita...

Malimutan na kita....



--by Jojo Crisologo

UnFaIr

The World Ain't Fair...

'coz if it is

I

Wouldn't Be Here

Ranting

Like

This...

The Prayer

God,

Reveal to me the joy of being loving, self-sacrificing and charitable.

Teach me to know and play life's game with courage, fortitude and confidence.

Endow me with wisdom to guard my tongue and temper, and learn with patience the art of ruling my own life for its highest good, with due regards for privacy, rights and limitations of other lives.

Help me to strive for the highest legitimate reward of merit, ambition and oppurtunity in my activities, ever ready to extend a kindly helping hand to those who need encouragement and help in the struggle.

Enable me to give a smile instead of a frown, a cheerful, kindly word instead of harshness and bitterness.

Make me sympathetic in sorrow, realizing that there are hidden woes in every life no matter how exalted.

If in life's battle am wounded or tottering, pour into my wounds the balm of hope and imbue me with courage undaunted to arise and continue the strife.

Keep me humble in every relation of life, not unduly egotistical nor liable to the serious sin of self-depreciation.

In sucess, keep me meek.

In sorrow, may my soul be uplifted by the thought that if there were no shadow, there would be no sunshine.


--- from The Greatest Mystery In The World
By Og Mandino


***** I got this from peyups.com, posted in one of the forums (World view). A good one to start your day right. God Bless us all!

What Is The Sound Of A Heart Breaking?

It is the sound of someone curled up in a tiny ball crying softly in the night, the sound of the first unwanted teardrop touching your skin, it's the sound of a telephone that doesn't ring, the sound of regret pounding inside your brain with every heartbeat, it's the whispers of the toy animals he gave you.

It's the shuffling of feet walking away from you, the sound of your soul shattering into a million pieces at recognizing the word "goodbye," it’s the soundtrack of memories torturing you, it's the sound of feeble hands trying to push back the obstinate hands of time, it's the sound of a cherub's dying breath, the sound of all those years disappearing in the vortex of Cupid's kitchen sink, it's the unrelenting plaintive baby meows of an abandoned kitten outside an ignoring door.

It's the sound of the rain that doesn't ever stop, the sound of all the doors shutting and closing in your face at the same time, of raging, howling storms in the night when there's no one there to hold you, the sound of your voice as it screams back at you, the echo of "I love yous" burning holes in you, the sound your heart makes as it tells you to lie still because nothing you will ever do will matter without love.

The sound of the waves of the polluted beach you went to as it moves from the shore and crashes inside your mind, of the sniffles that make up your pathetic "SOS-to-the-world," the cracking of the brittle black-red petals from the sidewalk vendor roses he gave, the sound of the music he used to make going to your gut.

The sound of things in your room being thrown around and landing on the floor, the caress of kitchen knives on skin, the sound your throat makes as you swallow your saltiest tear.

It's the sound of your own voice calling out to someone who isn't there, of dying birds getting splattered on a city pavement, of terms of endearment used a hundred times a day struggling to crawl into a vacuum of forgetfulness, it's the sound of your own sobs keeping you company, it's the cold, uncaring stillness of the air you share your space with.

Destruction isn't always as noisy as bombs exploding. Sometimes the ultimate catastrophes are as quiet as a feather falling on the floor of a Zen monastery. No one else can really hear your heart breaking except you.

by Karen Kunawicz


*****To you my friend, you know who you are...go where your heart leads you. It's gonna be a bumpy ride, I know but I hope in the end it'll all be worth it. Just enjoy the sight. I may not be good in giving you advice but I will always be here to listen. You can count on that. What are friends for anyway?! Hugs to you! :)

Gimme Some Loving :)

I miss to cuddle and being cuddled by someone *sigh* Asan ka na ba? Dumating ka na! Get here fast! I promise you, cuddling is only the beginning, there'll be more to come! *wink* :) Who wants to try?! haha! Free trial but for a limited time only! Gaz, my hormones are going haywire! wahehe! :)

Kissing A Fool

Kissing A Fool
by Michael Buble

You are far when I could have been your star
You listened to people who scared you to death and from my heart
Strange that you were strong enough to even make a start
You'll never find peace of mind 'till you listen to your heart

People, you can never change the way they feel
Better let them do just what they will
For they will if you let them steal your heart from you
People, will always make a lover feel a fool
But you knew I loved you
We could have shown them all
We should have seen love through

Fooled me with the tears in your eyes
Covered me with kisses and lies
So far but please don't take my heart

You are far I'm never gonna be your star
I'll pick up the pieces and mend my heart
Strange that I was wrong enough to think you'd love me too
You must have been kissing a fool
I Said you must have been kissing a fool

But remember this every other kiss
That you'll ever give long as we both live
When you need the hand of another man
One you really can surrender with
I will wait for you like I always do
There's something there that can't compare with any other

You are far when I could have been your star
You listened to people who scared you to death and from my heart
Strange that I was wrong enough to think you'd love me too
You must have been kissing a fool
You must have been kissing a fool

Terminal

What is it about airports that gives me the shiver? Ever since I was a kid I hated to be in that place especially the so called departure area. You see, I am the kind that is not good with goodbyes. I hated it...no scratch that, I abhor goodbyes. The only funny thing is, even if I was the one going away and not the one left, I still dont like it. I still cry knowing that I will leave somebody behind even for just a time. Good thing, everytime I boarded a plane, I always sit on the business class part (thanks to my priveledge card!) ...alone...with no one beside me that's why I am not ashamed to cry my heart out (but still I have to be discreet on this coz there are so many pretty stewardess checking you out, kakahiya noh!)

Well, maybe I really dont hate the place...maybe I just hated what is going on in that place. It is the sad part of the airport. One is leaving but the others are left behind. And it is not unusual to see people crying and hugging the ones they love & maybe wish for just another minute of togetherness before reality strikes that it is time to really say goodbye. Seeing scenes like that will really break your heart. One way or another, that departure will change your life forever. Man, this is sad! :(

Tonight is my mom's flight back to the Phils. I told my mom I would not be able to see her off. It's not that I dont want to...it's just that I cant. I know Im gonna cry and I dont want her to see that. I know she's excited and all but I also know that somehow she's also sad. I already miss her but I promised to see her again in April. Im going home in April yipeeee! And that part of the airport is what I love... arrival! :)

On Solitude

This is the place that knows all my secrets, my heartaches and my pains. This is the exact spot. I used to frequent this place especially during the night just to think things over with my cigaratte as my company. This place has seen me cry, laugh, pray, rant and rave. It knows me inside and out. I couldn't hide anything from it. It has seen me in my most depressing moment, as well as in my happiest. It's been almost 2 years but it's still there and not once did i feel unwelcome in its arms. Whenever I feel like being alone, I just drive away and go there. It's where I feel at peace with myself and one with my God. Right at that spot, I listen to the sea whispers and in the morning or before sunset, I looked for birds who formed their flying V formation, and whenever I see one it really made me happy and thank God for such a wonderful sight.

I know I will still have a long way to go. I am just starting to pick up the pieces of my shattered life and I know my emotions is still as rollercoaster-like as before but I am slowly learning to live and not merely exist. I already accepted the fact that shit happens and it happens to the best of us. Well, I guess that's life. When weariness gets the best of me, I know where I can go to make peace with my soul...it is in this exact place...a place that never falters to make me feel better after a long and tiring day...even in my solitude.

We Love F.R.I.E.N.D.S.!!!!

Whenever we dont have anything to do, we used to just hang out @ one of my friend's crib and just chill out. And because it was so cold here at this time of the year especially at night, drinking coffee while smoking is so much fun! :) We just hang around her veranda and feel the chilly cold weather outside while watching the city sleeps. I am content with doing just that coz I know I am with real people...my friends...whom I share everything with and who are still there especially when I am in deep shit. I wish life will be on our side this time.

They are the 'tv people' who makes us laugh the most...and we love them! THEY ROCK!!!! I wish we could have that kind of friendship...through thick and thin!

Watching these people is one of the things that keeps me sane. Though I admit I really am crazy hehe :) but I forget my problems when I see them on screen. A big thumbs up for FRIENDS! :)


This is Them....


And This is Us! :)